The Wishlist

If there was one thing in the world 
That I could have


I just want to disappear...
Just be gone forever
I would never had bothered anyone 
Or screwed up their plans
To never have existed
Would be my one wish that I hope 
Would come true
I'm crushed, crumbled, fallen 
Just pieces of glass 
No more reflection just gone 
Gone, I want to die to never 
See this broken world ever again
Or maybe my eyes are broken
And I don't see the world 
The way I should see the world. 


I went though some serious depressing moments in my teen years and still to this day I don't know whether or not it was legitimate or not because I was never diagnosed with anything. Was I just someone screaming for attention? Asking for help was and still isn't easy and I have always had issues opening up and sharing myself with anyone. I am just grateful I had an outlet to get me through.

Just Say It

When a song can't say it all
I like to say it myself
Because if I don't, I know I won't 
It will not come out at all

When words can't express how I feel
I like to show it any way I can
Because if I don't, I know I won't
And I'll walk away as fast as I can 

When words and actions can't say it all
I like to sit and think to myself 
Because if I don't,I know I won't
It will all come crumbling down


This was a poem I wrote a long time ago, sometime back in high school during a very moody time. Then again, I think everyone had moody times growing up. If you didn't then I really would like to shake your hand and congratulate you. I think this one was written specifically during one of my first break ups. I was really mopey even though I was the one who broke things off. It's funny how that all works and how years later none of the silliness matters even though it was everything to you then in that moment.